My main aim for today was to wake up at noon time or after.. i just knew that would not happen! i got up at 8 something in the morning and then when i did force myself to sleep again, guess who rings me? ---> Sathish!! i was wondering what in the world would dat guy want with me at dat time in the morning.. well, i called him back and he had no reply and then half an hour later he calls my room phone and then said dat he just simply called.. i was like yeah... I dunno if he knows or not but its been exactly a year today since i confessed to him and told him that i liked him and he had to just reject me!!!well, then i just ended up on the phone after that to family members and everyone... i actually started typing my blog in the morning but then i got distracted and ended leaving it... i thought i will watch some of the movies that the girls left for me to watch during the weekend. all the girls have gone back for the weekend.. i thought i will actually make use of this but then with my sleep deprivation and everything, i just did nothing today.... i watched 3/4 of 'Friday' and i just felt sleepy and ended up sleeping. i didn't realise i went to sleep and then i just woke up at 6.30!!! i thought it was 6.30 on a Sunday morning, i think if it was up to me, i would have just slept till sunday morning but then i realised it was still a saturday evening... woke up with a bad mood as i usually am when i realised i just wasted all my free time like that!! well, i just have to blame myself for all this!i don't even want to think of what i did yesterday!! I did my first mentoring job yesterday! it was fun minus the part i had to be at richmond for 8.45 a.m.! i could do dat on normal days but then i just couldn't be bothered to be there so early in the morning!! well, ended up going there and then waiting for 4 kids to come in a bus... it was quite intimidating for me actually cuz i expected small kids to come down the bus and not kids as tall as me!! but at least they turned out to be a nice bunch of kids.. me and Naz were in charge of nine students.. At least i had Naz with me so it wasn't fun. we did like a true/false quiz with them... they didn't open up or was interested in it... they were just sitting around and saying yes or no.. then we moved on to IMAX and watched a 3D movie on cyberworld or something like that.. it was ok, not too bad... then walked them back to the university and showed them around the campus and everywhere... they were quite bored wit that and were just waiting to go for lunch.. Lunch was so bad, the fish was oily and we didn't ave time to have a proper lunch... we had to hurry for an afternoon workshop... the workshop was fun.. we had to build paper airplanes and the grou dat did the most and were able to fly them a certain distance wins... My team won!! Yay! did nothing though but Yay!! Lol.. Oh yeah i kept cutting and handing them cellotape! It was cute looking at the kids cuz i think one of the girls in the group liked the boy in the group and she was doing things and looking at him and fluttering her eyes..... Awwww..... it was so cute!! She kept praising him and being his right hand. I was paying attn to her and the guy than actually doing the work!! Ha ha ha ha.... I wonder if i was like that when i was her age.... i wonder if i am like that at this age as well!!! Lol.. I don't know why girls get so involved emotinally and physically when they like guys! i mean whats the point on girls wasting their time on how they look or how to react just to get the guys attention? whats the point when the guy doesn't even feel tat way or worse ever when the guy doesn't even know you exist. I think tats the worst feeling ever. I hope that girl does meet her Mr. Right and is happy!!! I am just putting my chapter of liking guys to a pause. I am so fed up feeling the same thing all the time and ending up in disappointment... liking a guy is always interesting and the whole emotion when you see the guy you like but at the end of the day it always ends up in disappointment.... i think i really have to learn from this one year with confessing to sathish. God always works in mysterious ways. there is a lesson behind everything that happens to us. Sometimes we don't even know why it happens to us and we feel really hurt but then it all gets explained to us at the end of the day. Thats the beauty behind it..well, what else has happened? Hmm... i went to check the night out at leeds last night.. it was really good. the place was two storeys and they had two dance floors.. it was like a proper place and nothing like livingstones at all.. the music was good as well and they played belly dancer! Lol.. i was so dead last night, I was on my feet they whole day yesterday so o was tired and just wanted to sleep but the girls always want to stay till the end so i was just waiting for time to fly.. we left about 2 3o in the morning and arrived here about 3 00.. then the girls wanted a takeaway so we got our ships and walked back home in the cold.. went to sleep at 4 after all dat exhaustion and guess who decides on calling me up out of the blue in the morning? well, my dear sathish!! why did he call, you ask me?? I have no idea!! Lol.. Well i have been writing a bit too much about a certain someone in my blogs.. i was thinking to myself i have to stop mentioning dat someone.. the word for me is Personal/ Self Control.. i was thinking to myself what have i achieved in this one year since the whole sathish thing occured but then i couldn't really put it in words... i don't think much has changed and dat is quite disappointing! i think i shoud be a better person and much improved but i don't think i have achieved dat. i hope i have finally realised dat now and will work towards it this year at least and i will see for my 2nd year anniversary! Lol.. going to go and sleep now and wake up early for some work hopefully...
SubaG
12:08 pm
