I've been quite clueless these past few days.. I know i should be concentrating on my exams and not thinking about anything else but i just can't help it.. Its like thinking about things which i should not be thinking about... I have been turning to god to see if he can give me a clear answer. i have spent time thinking and to be im ashamed to say this but crying.... i have been looking for signs and jsut clues for my answer and i think i may have got an answer today... it wasn't so clear and i don't know if its the right answer but i am going to accept it.I heard in Oprah once that history keeps repeating itself until you have learnt your lesson. I am so scared dat history is going to repeat itself again. i hope to just be normal and not do anything. i don't want to think about a person and i don't want to really be in touch with the person. i feel like i have just been falling into a bottomless pit and its going no where.. i just want to be rescued and brought back to the ground. i had so much self-control... i hope to get it all back i feel so vulnerable... i don't understan why i keep doing this to myself.. i'm so fed up of thinking the same thing again and again and again.. i just wish god will give me the strength to put this matter at the back of my mind and let me just concentrate on my exams.lets see, exams on friday!! PP2(26/5) ---> going to start only on wednesdayBody Control System(31/5) ---> started like 8 lectures from sem 1 and 3 from sem 2Pharmacognosy (1/6) ---> going to start it tom for a dayPharmaceutics(2/6) ---> spent three days on it and finised part of it but 90 people had to resit dat exam last year!!! its the hardest of them all.. 100% exam and not coursework involved!! Renal and respitaroty and cardiovascular (5/6) ---> did the two major chunks but i didn't memorise the information and have just read through.. Looking at my summary, i wonder how i am going to pass my exams!! Oh god, i really have to prioratise shoudn't i!!! Yeah i think so tooo...
SubaG
7:17 pm
