well, i sure have been missing in action for sometime... So many things have happened in this one month.. U plan one thing and God has a totally different plan for you.. I got my results for my summer exams.. i failed pharmacognosy.. i cannot believe i failed one of my final exams.. Its the first time i have failed..i haven't failed any exams before... this was definately an eye opener for me, i realised dat i can't just try my luck and pass my exams..I had my interview with Durhan hosp the next day.. it was a reallu daunting time.. had to travel 3 hours just to go for my interview. i liked going back to durham though, its such a nice hstoric place and the people there are so friendly.. from the taxi driver when i got there to the person at the hospital, they were all really friendly and nice people.. the interview went really horribly though... i didn't know most of the answers and knew nothing about the PJ and the medicines management at the hospital.. i just found out that i got the hospital placement!! i'm so glad and thankful i got the place!! YaY.. Its gonna be really scar though.. i can't imagine moving to a place where i know no one and have to make friends from scratch. im glad in a way going to a place where i know no one and well, i won't have this feeling i am being watched by people.. bradford is good cuz i am 4 hours away from family but i still have the bradford uncle there and sometimes i feel like i don't get to be independent because he is always there.. This month has really been an emotionaly strain on me.. i have never felt this lonely before.. i just end up crying like dat.. i was sitting on the tube and saw this family and started crying cuz i was gettign homesick.. i was really looking forward to going home and i was crushed when i found out dat i had to stay behind and revise.. haven't done much revision though.. i think i went into depression for sometime.. i'm tryin to accept the fact dat i have stayed back for a month now and i have failed my exams but its just the hardest thing to accept. i just have been keeping to myself.. i don't want to talk to anybody.. i rather be by myself and just be in my own thoughts. i don't want to speak to anyone and msg or anything.. i don't know why i just want to withrdraw myself and sit in one corner and just let time fly..
SubaG
11:20 pm
