I'd like to really thank my sis for doing this new layout for my blog.. I just needed a change and she's the expert in this sort of thing! i am so hopeless in all this and its the 21st century!! lol.. Oh well, ill learn something in due time.. Blogging keeps me sane but i just lost the interest to blog or just see my past posts cuz i kept thinking of home. I know i can get weird sometimes!I want a fresh start.. I think i am moving towards dat goal.. Work has been a blessing for me in disguise. Work has taken my mind of a lot of things. I just wanted to forget everything in my life.. I just gave work 100% of my time, energy and willpower.. The people at work did test me though.. i mean there are people there who are antifriendly and the people are quite snappy towards me but that was good ebcause it tested my patience. i have got quite a high tolerance level now. I think i have forgotten a special someone now.. Thats good news. He is not the right person for me.. he is a great guy but then we are from two different continents and we have our own culture, beliefs and ways of life... I have to thank work for that.. going to work and concentrating on things there has made me take other thigns from my mind.. I still have the fear for my resits but then that will always be there till the 1st of Sept. I think i have become a more independent person now. I have been staying by myself in my uncles house for the past month now. i didn't think i will be capable of doing it. i thought i will have to run to my aunts house an hour of staying alone but i am proud of myself. i have come through and can stay alone in a house. i experienced going to work, coming home to an empty house, cooking for myself and cleaning after that. Life sure is tough but its good i got this experience and i know what i need to do in future. i have to do this in durham next year anywaz. Sometimes you question yourself why things happen to you and why is it hard but then i think god has got his own plan for us and that is the best plan at the end of the day. Things won't come to us like that, we have to work towards it and go through a lot of hardship in other to achieve something and trust me, we will be so much thankful when we go through the more bumpy road. I've been in autopilot this whole month. sometimes i go the wrong way or i do stupid things in public cuz i have just been in my own world. i know its not the end of the wprld to fail and exam but still its been quite hard.. been closing myself from a few friends because i rather deal with it myself. i just don't feel like talking to some people. they just want to know if i have been revising and how that is going.. i just don't want to talk about resits or anything related to studies. it just puts me off studying as well..
SubaG
5:25 pm
