I'm going to go on a one month detox programme. i don't want to like guys or think about guys. i want to try and find me back. i want to smell the flowers *figure of speech its the middle of autumn here! not gonna gte any fresh flowers!* i want to enjoy my friends and all my surroudings. thats wat matters at the end of the day NOT some tom, dick or Harry. :)Nighty Night
SubaG
3:20 am
I sure have been missing in action for quite a bit now! lol... Its been three weeks since i am back in Bradford.. Good Ol Bradford! lol.. Life's just been like one rollercoaster ride since i got back.. I haven't had a proper night where i have gone to sleep before 12 and just relaxed the next day.. I have been going to sleep late and waking up early.. Just came back from FND.. the girls are still out but i decided to come back early.. Gonna go shopping into Leeds tom! Yay.. i think i might need some retail therapy actually.. I fall for guys really easily. I might say dats my weakest point. I met this guy called G a few weeks ago and he seemed nice and we had some good conversations. i just found out he has a gf! I've come back to the starting point again.. i am familiar to this feeling! lol.. I really wanted tostop with guys after sathish but i seemed to have fallen twice now! I'm so sick of love songs and so tiredof tears!M is back.. he didn't make it to third year and has to redo second year. Saw hima couple of times.. things have been so weird between us. idunno why.. i haven;t been myself and he seems like he is annoyed with me.. i dunno hwta i have done and i dunno what is wrong with our relationship now. im just gonna give it a rest and see how things go. I miss the old me. i want the old me back. i feel like i have lost myself after the resit exam. i don't know myself. i look in the mirror n u see this person staring back at me n i feel lost. i want to just run away from everything. i want to go away n not speak to anyone. i feel like locking my room n staying in their. i dunt want to speak to anyone. i want to go back home. i want to see familiar places. i want to see familiar people i want to put my head on my moms lap and just sleep.. i want to go back. i guess i am just releasing all my emotions dat i have bottled up.. im going to sleep now. i don't want to go on longer. it will just make me feel worse..
SubaG
2:50 am
